You came back

Two years and six months... You left me then. Yes we have been talking now, on phone ofcourse. But life since then has changed a lot. Trying it hard i however managed to live without her, accepted someone else's love. But you still have the power to influence a big time. I still like to talk to you.
Three years of engineering and Delhi life may have changed you a lot. But inside u are same, the old one, sweet caring one.

I can't tell why the hell i did talk to to you but i talk to you, i like doing that and mainly, a sudden breeze from the past just come visit me every now and then. Time spent with you was so good that i even have its aroma.

You Came Back, and at a stroke, changed everything.....

Zindagi- the cycle

When we pass on  a moment, we just dont admire its importance but when it is lost somewhere into the midst of time, we regret that we let it go. Those moments sometimes change your life completely and you are no more the same person you were used to be. You will come across many people who later on in their lives keeps recalling the times they were awesome, and they could have become the best.

Also life has this weird nature that the things or the people we leave or dump has the tendency to bounce back again somewhere at later parts, and in most unexpected ways, ways even you couldn't imagine. And at that time everything seems subtle, the complete equilibrium is found in between tornado of thoughts. The thoughts of past come hovering you, and apologies are there, but no one to listen or forgive. You feel heavy. The burden overshadows your charisma.

Now the question arises, how to overcome this situation? Is it even possible? How can we change the past?
Well, yes! its possible, although you cant change your past but do something in the present that gives you happiness. Take things on! live it, may be it is again the moment that life has offered you to live again, the moment you regretted earlier. Yes you have to make arrangements, but who wont, in return to calmness, satisfaction, love, and happiness.

Not all the people are lucky enough to recast what they have done earlier, not every one gets this beautiful chance, not everyone is so lucky to have someone love them so specially and deeply. There is a line in a famous Hindi Bollywood song of movie 'kal ho na ho', "aisa jo koi kahi hai, bus wo hi sabse hasin hai,, us hath ko, tum tham lo,,, wo mehrbaan, kal ho na hoo". This in English is meant that if there is someone like that, then he's the most beautiful person on the planet, go grab that hand, who knows if he'll be still there tomorrow.

This life is a cycle, round and round, just age goes on, but things repeats, first to your parents, then to you, next to your children, to your grand children and so on, keeps on repeating generation to generation.

Zindagi..... I Miss My School Life

                                                   
Today while going through the snaps of my school life, i went into the flashback. I always wonder, how beautiful the days were. Everything was so damn simple, girlfriend was simply a  female friend, Sunday was a holiday, chocolate was the mightiest treat, wishing teacher while entering in long unison monotonous voice "goooddmmmmorrrrrrnnnniiiinnngggg    maaaaaaammmmm.....".

The beautiful 14 years of my life, in which i had my schooling, were the most beautiful days so far. I remember, the first time i bunked the school and went to saw a movie, my first girlfriend, my first love, my bestest buddies there, my lovely days out in school, and most importantly that life....

Now at this moment of time, standing and looking back, just a smile, a deep smile on the face and just a single wish, "i wish i could live that again".

The last day of school is very damn clear to me. Me and the gang of my friends were standing infront of my house after the last day class over, and was sharing there best moments and memories, for hours it went on, we laughed a lot, but after that conversation was over, everyone realized that those 'Golden Moments'  are just a memory now. We realized that things will never again be the same, all will be dispersed into their lives. Each one of us were literally crying. We never imagined that leaving school will be so painful, and those silly moments, which just happened in the heat of the moment that time, will be the reason for our smiles and beautiful memory spots in our minds..... FOREVER....

Still There Somewhere.....

It has been two and half years since we broke up, but somewhere deep inside me she still stings. I always miss her when i am in the darkness of loneliness. Her small details, her specific way of smiling, her tender love and care....

I know she is long gone, moved ahead in her life, but she was my first love. I never thought that i will be introduced to love in such a beautiful way, that she happened to me. Like wind, her love is felt still now, but nowhere seen. I tried hard to forget her, involved myself in stuffs, started to ignore my heart, her memories went contracting and contracting, but never just left my mind and heart.

Even today, i find myself shedding tears and regretting everything that i let happened   to let her go. I wish i could go back and mend everything, but the harsh reality is that shez never gonna come back in my life again. All i have to do is to live with her sweet memories.

"If there were no words, no way to speak,

      I would still hear you...

If there were no tears, no way to feel inside,

   I'd still feel for you......"